i'm switching over to treebaby  because i no longer feel that i identify with this. or whatever. AND I WAS LIKE WHATEVER. i'll add ya'll there n stuff.

I cannot answer you tonight in small portions.
Torn apart by stormy love’s gate, I float
like a phantom facedown in a well where
the cold dark water reflects vague half-built
stars
and trades all our affection, touching, sleeping
together for tribunal distance standing like
a drowned train just beyond a pile of Eskimo
skeletons.

there’s
this golden moment
when the sun
licks through the gauze
fluttering at my window
warming my eyelids to opening

this golden moment
when I’m not yet awake enough
to remember
that there are things
I would rather
forget.

“I failed eating, failed drinking, failed not cutting myself into shreds. Failed friendship. Failed sisterhood and daughterhood. Failed mirrors and scales and phone calls.

Good thing I’m stable.”

— Laurie Halse Anderson

"In these dreams it’s always you:
The boy in the sweatshirt,
The boy on the bridge, the boy who always keeps me
from jumping off the bridge.
Oh, the things we invent when we are scared
and want to be rescued."

"my Dearest Wife,

as I am sending you this card, I wish that I was with you, but that cannot be. but I'll be thinking of you "my Darling". Every thing is fine with me, but I am keeping my fingers crossed, and hoping that this war is over soon. Well "Darling" there isn't much to write about, so I'll close with best regards and love to you. I love you sweetheart.

your Loving Husband"

--my grandfather to my grandmother during WWII

After a while
you get comfortable

listening to your
blood pass over your bones.

The love and hate
battling every cell.

If only alone didn't
mean peace.
And together unrest.